WHEN
when now when with a pen when Zazen
when Kinhin when Dudeman when kin
come to live in an apartment belonging to you
what do you do do you show them in
when when I'm in my bin with tea box
Genine said Chamomile doesn't come
in a box only it's on the lawn
when I strip and shower
when I say the washing gatha
quietly so nobody can hear my
so embarrassing
when when one syllable
when when is No Mind
when when is not separate from mind
when when is come in when when seed
in GIN the juniper berry
I better not drink it even tho
I haven't vowed the precepts
I want to I want to drink GIN
when Now when Now
when when Now
Not in Kinhin but now
Give me the Jupiter berry
I fly to Pluto
in my Juniper Shuttle
The atmosphere tastes hot on my lens
Am I a telescope No No I'm
obnoxious jikido mimicking liturgy
when when That's not me when it's me
when can I stay an extra week
when I find a tent when I find
a tent for Sesshin will I find
a tent for Sesshin that is future
not this moment Moment has
Mom in it That's not when
that's JUDGEMENT

when when will I find out
if I'm really a cosmonaut boyscout
when I skateboard the craters of Jupiter
does Jupiter have craters
That's the moon
Cute Cute Cute cut it cut it when
Now don't wait for Zazen come in Uji
Uji The Time Being come in
where are you Rodney your buzzcut
I can still see You're gone you left
in a car you were a good roomie
left the light on for me when I was
late for bed lights out when lights out
Lights going down now
Thunder and Lightning
last night
didn't obey community silence
or lights out
That's not now that's
when when when I was this
I was then
Now I'm when when when when when
whenny when winter when
summer when
spring when
peripheral vision deer
peripheral deer vision
red flakes in spinal August
That was when that was hot when
Kinhin solar plexus where's that
are my thumbs in Shashu
when the solar plexus when the sun
when the juniper berry orbits
my gin glass too fast O just
fast enough
when when one goes
to Jupiter
in Juniper Berry
Shuttle
wave to me when when when
window when window when
window pane when

THE BLACK PAINTINGS
Saturn chomping on Children McNuggets—
ghoul parade through smoking oilwell day—
sailor
skull
bashed
on rocks.
I'm dehydrated, Bach. Water! Water!
No answer.
Are you being mean
are you a mean being
meaning what—
I get up and pour water from a filter pitcher
into Bell Atlantic THE HEART OF COMMUNICATION mug—
Today my mugshot appears above my head
I'm wanted in 52 states
and especially in
the 53rd, 54th, and 50 millionth state of
GEEZE UNITED STATES
Really united brain plates in a pyramid
I eat my dinner with
how many lives
I.E.D.s
and E.T.s
on movie screens
the drive-in extinct
the human extinct—really?
Is desire? Can desire be extinguished?
The x arms and y legs growing out of me—
I would like to chop them off
but have no cutlery to hand, Bach,
cutting a trail through the Grail Woods
listening to a monk
chanting a mantra I never
heard before and CRACK!
the deer run in twos from me—
I stepped on a cracked brown glass bottle—
shards hanging from my ankle I lift ankle
up stop listen to the chant did the glass—
the glass did not
penetrate the skin—let the chant chant you—
Thank you Monk—
A West Point jet BOOMS above us
Roshi says "I'm glad they're so close to us!"
A house full of people in black
vowing to save all sentient beings and failing and continuing
to do it anyway—empty ourselves—the consolation of
suchness! no holding on to it
gone with the deer—
I want to run with you deer
through the entire Middle East
bringing peace peace peace
antlers growing up out of
the top of deer's head red deer white spots deer I want
I need you deer do you hear me deer and Bach and
Everybody here not here hearing seeing touching tasting
breathing bleeding
I won't go to Iraq
I'm no deer
The deer is a deer
I'm me this Bach is
making a black painting in me
Goya Goya where did you go
when your hearing went
into the pigment of
The Black Paintings.

